Judas

I just want to share a fucking moment with someone. To shut up all their wants. People constantly want shit they don’t need and it keeps them totally blinded from this pivotal awesome beauty of expressing an experience with another being.

Sometimes it’s important to me to shut down everything I think I need or want and turn my attention to my immediate company. To say I love you I am here with you right now. You are not alone. We feel the same way at the same time. To shut down the ego or your identity.

But even trying to make someone understand how-with out feeling the need to oppress them or turn them into property or some soul mate-you simply want to relish in the euphoria of now. You make yourself vulnerable to them because it makes you feel good to feel vulnerable, but so many seem so incapable of something seemingly so simple.

And if you try to express this feeling or explain to them to quiet their thoughts. They are totally lost. Or at least it feels that way. You wonder if every word is taken completely for granted and you can never know because you will never be that person. You will never truly know if any of this shit is getting through. Seems bitter sweet.

This is a rough text I am not going to edit or revise. I hope it gets through to someone though. In a clearer state I might of expressed myself better, but then again…maybe none of this is or will ever get through. I don’t have any expectations of you, but I refuse to not make myself vulnerable or to close those doors.

I’m making my tumblr more personal because I’m lost in a sea of reblogs.